holidays are here, but im sure it’ll end in a jiffy….back back back to reality. like studying. like making grades. making dreams come true. even though they are forced dreams. but i truly want to improve my maths. i really do. i was wondering lying on my bed, staring at my ceiling how it probably is the last everybody looks at before dis app earing into cloud nine. – how i would be happy when i finally pass my maths, be it a small class test, common test, exams. i would be happier then getting new clothes, shoes, money, attention, skinnier, prettier, food, and many more superficial things (ps: i take back food, i love food). i hope mr koh would be proud of me for at least once. hold up, not only once. every fucking day actually. end.

not really. hehe.

so! today i went xout with my two fav buddies lee shi min and fernanda heng. funny how ppl keep asking me to get myself a christian name, i mean i know that my name sounds so.. cheena and icky but nobody has that name. so im happy with it. i was thinking when we were walking down the streets of orchard. i was contented. really greatful (i mean grateful, its all your fault adelene chong), that both my fav ppl in the world is with me. we could just sit down and start talking about everything. from their fav most ‘hot’ boy bands from kpop. haha actually, im pretty sure its a hot topic for every teenage girls right now. or… maybe the boys too? *coughchuaweiliangcough* (who thinks jay park is hot hhahhaa gay much?) ok sorry. im just saying. work tmr from 6.30pm – i hate my job. i really hate my job. going to meet those two cuties again at cityhall. to get their… kpop concert tickets (?) beast? yeah. hopefully i would get to indulge myself with swensens sticky chewy chocolate because fernanda heng is really particular about the surrounding when we settle for food, she needs the air con. and, cine’s swensens doesnt have air con. did i mention i hate my job? hate. hate. hate my job. (go on, tell me to quit) 

to victoria : be safe in shanghai even though you cannot access to fb, must be a tortue for you since everybody knows you’re a fb whore by ‘liking’ every single thing on fb. even to the extend of being racist.. liking a whole bunch of indian related. still, dont get food posioning. hurry into h&m! rmb me when u step into shopping malls!!!! something to look forward to : shimin and fernanda wants you to join us for ice skating haha.

i still hate my job

chao!

Hi – I’m currently craving for honey milk tea right now. I should probably try Koi’s milk tea too, I saw super mad queues for it over at People’s Park. On a much lighter note…. My mid terms are o-v-e-r!! But, there is a catch to it. The results always come back faster then you want it to be. So – my take? Roadkill. My parents are so fucking going to kill me. I’m going crazy, for real. I left out, 20 marks(maybe its more!!!!) worth of maths question just because I was tired and had flu and had really hazy eye vision.

+ Going for a piknik tmr! Here comes finger food and lots and lots of diet coke. ( e tells me diet coke has MORE calories then the normal ones?) Oh Lord, praise your name – thou shall not be true! I’ve consumed.. (scary figues) of cans already. Let’s all hope that it doesn’t pour tmr. Please?

+ I’m going to sleep somemore right now and catch a movie in a while. Cross my fingers the microwaved popcorn isn’t bad after so long. Sloth forever. Vote for psj.

Ps: I can never find the perfect rosary.

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I didn’t even have the intention to blog, just because Kan Jinwen wants to show everyone how creative he was when he draw me a birthday cake via IM-ing when nobody wanted to cut my cake.

x still I had to rant on how I am going to die after mid terms as my dad is sO going to kill me when he sees my report card! Grounded for life.

It’s a day before my birthday! I get to be 15! Everyone should sing me Taylor’s fifteen song. I’m too young.

I’ve been surviving well in school, except surviving isn’t a really well versed term to use as I almost got knocked down by a white van. I was running late for assembly. Nothing particularly was on my mind, just staring at the traffic lights for it to turn red. Red! GO! Walk. My eyeballs couldn’t reach to the other end of the road ; maybe if only I turned my head earlier I would see it coming. But I didn’t. Heard a screech close, too close for comfort. My body seemed to be in a state of shock it didn’t move, she didn’t let me run. I stayed like that for 1 second. Jerked. My legs seemed to be all over the place. I have no idea why, but memories of me watching ‘accident’ dramas replayed, actors get knocked down by a car and before that he/she seemed to stay in the position for 5 second with the shocked look. I tell myself, “Stupid! Run away and everything will be fine”. But.. they acted correctly. Too shock to do anything including running away for your life. OK -cut- I know I’m going all dramatic, but bare me – I just have to! x I’m perfectly in one piece.

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Even though mid terms have yet to be over, I’ve picked out what colour my toes are going to be.

Even though my sisters are still living in the house, wait till they move out.

Even though I know a.p.c is so far and way too over rated for me, I picked a perfect outfit.

Even though my mom hates the thought of responsibility. I love cats stfu.

Even though I know I would never ever built a dollhouse, this is the best I’ve ever seen.

Even though I only have for-school-shoes as converse. Look at this! Rad.

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I love my friends!

Check out all these super rad crowl neck tees! You can never get enough of basics.

I wouldn’t mind having these, but…

Buggu shall be my affordable bag now – I’m going to check them out at Rockstar by Soon Lee over at Cineleisure.

PS: Hopefully my mom would help.

PSS: I’m totally looking forward to Friday!

Ok – hi.

Sigh… Camp was such a sucker h8h8h8h8h8h8 it! Fine, I just disagree with the campfire (it’s supposed to be the fun-est thing in the camp) instead that small fire + small area + really bad cheers + bad …… ok I was about to type performance, and then I remembered I was one of the “bad performance”. Whatever. On the semi-brighter sight! One of the high element trainer was cute with his shades, bandana, ear piercing and really good taste in music. Do you not agree more? Elaine? Victoria? The food was…. er…. Well, I couldn’t ever judge. I was hungry, you eat almost everything when you’re starving. I’ve had my first hiking experience. I’m determine to have a picnic at Bukit Timah Hill. Which brings me back to how I’m supposed to have a date with Shimin at Hort Park (not forgetting you, Xiao Wei!)

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Yesterday, G8G8G8G8G8 day (ha-ha I’m sorry, everything seems able with eight) with Shimin – shopping success! Initially we had Fun-o-rama in mind, but since it ended early and we just reached home from camp, the rushing part weren’t happening even if hell freezes over. Still we were able to make it to flea over at skate park, we had our shopping spree at 313 through – I should stop spending my money on rings.

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Things I’m in love with now : koko crunch + fruity pebbles (I swear I really wouldn’t mind having it for all my meals) + my dear Shimin ^_^

Have you figured them out? You meet – hello there, what’s going on with your life, what do you do with your free time, what are your likes and dislikes, let’s make a date and we’ll see how it goes from there. A cycle. Is being heartbroken a cycle? Dear V, I’ve no ounce of a clue what to do to prevent anything from happening to your soul. Sometimes, we’re really glad you’ve become what you are right now – you would ask what are we doing after school, where are we heading to… Instead of, just running off to hide and wait coldly for someone deep down in your heart actually, you detest very much. That! I am so proud to say, is a past. What about now? What is going on? Up up down down, doesn’t that sounds like life to you? All kinds. But you must know, everything happens for a reason. So, I’m guessing every move you make in life, somehow or another; it comes back. Be it good, or bad. Choice. Whatever you say goes, including your decisions. All we ever wanted, was you being happy and we want you to know – we’re all here for you. <3

I wonder if you’re happy, what time you go to bed,

I think about what the point of thinking about you is

and why I  couldn’t stop if I tried

Did I just say I love you? Did I just prove it?

But nothing happened. A minute just went by, I blinked,

I swallowed, although I don’t remember doing these things

I clearly remember being with you

Does that mean you are more important then what I’m doing now?

Pathetic, people look at me like MOVING ON IS A CHOICE

Not for me. Stop feeling x sorry for yourself.

I’m not sorry for anyone.

These are the conversations you have

with yourself

Eating dinner alone at the kitchen n table

It’s a special kind of lonliness

Raw and unfiltered – organic NOT FROM CONCENTRATE

You’re a thousands of miles away but all I can hear is

fucking you

It makes eating and swallowing very difficult.

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Things to do:

01 Climb Hort Park with ShiMin

02 Must get birthday gifts – ShiMin & Adelene

03 Grasp the holidays for brushing up weaker subjects

04 Queue for Ippudo!!!! (ANYONE??)

05 Stop dropping my phone

06 Having my ears pierced again(?)

07 Save money

08 STOP EATING BREAD

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Ok — home early on a Thursday afternoon, I was terribly bored; sitting around, refreshing various websites, spamming Facebook on my status(which I eventually deleted it – too gay). I. Was. Dying. I was also searching for people online to annoy, but nobody seems to be online, and the rest didn’t seem to be responding ha-ha.

I was home as today was meet-the-parents-session, our appointment was at 7pm, which was ridiculous to hang around in school till that time comes around, hence coming home! Anyways, upon reaching there, you would have to sign in your name by the table – this Secondary One boy diligently ticked my name and then proceeded to ask the dumbest and weirdest question, “How many parents?” My Dad was…”WUT?” Oh god… The meeting, was. Very short. Still, my results weren’t a tad that bad, so my parents have decided to cut some slack on me. On our way home, my mom was craving for baos and made my dad stop at Ghim Moh but sadly they closed early. Funny, the wet market was still wide open and the staple food was still displaying out – thus my mom bought some carrots and cabbages back home (do not ask why, she claims it’s fresh).

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Last day of school tomorrow. Freedom isn’t all that free at all. The week would be great for catching up some homework! /I am very sure I wouldn’t touch any thing that has soft crisp paper, with wordings and equations/. On Wednesday, headed out even though it was a school night with Sze Min, Elaine. Soup spoon doesn’t get tired on my tongue, the mushroom soup is a must try! But aww, nothing will beat Ippudo hand down! Still, we had a good time together.. Just like old time!

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Just one, before I leave.

“The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life.

Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.”

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